WonL
The random thoughts of an architect-turned- lawyer from the deep south living in Washington, DC...
Friday, July 13, 2007
The Tunes of the Bar
I think we should start a Bar Exam Playlist. Wanna help? This is what I have so far:- Meet Virginia (Train)
- I Will Survive (Gloria Gaynor)
- Nothing Else Matters (Metallica)
- Take it to the Limit (Eagles)
- I Won't Back Down (Tom Petty)
- Nothing Can Stop Us (Saint Etienne)
- Keep the Faith (Bon Jovi)
- Turn the Page (Bob Seger)
- Far Behind (Candlebox)
- Livin' on a Prayer (Bon Jovi)
- Is there Life Out There (Reba McEntire)
- Sick of Myself (Matthew Sweet)
- Misery (Soul Asylum)
- Down in a Hole (Alice in Chains)
- I'm so Lonesome I could Cry (Hank Williams)
- Ain't No Fun (Snoop Dogg)
- How Much More? (Shaggy)
- Battered Broken (Jude)
- Cruel Summer (Bananrama)
And yes, I fully recognize the progression of misery that has been my summer.
Addin' to the List:
- I Fought the Law (The Clash)
- Help (Beatles)
- Stuck in Moment (U2)
- Under Pressure (Queen and David Bowie)
- Don't Panic (Coldplay)
- The District Sleeps Alone Tonight (Postal Service)
- Can't Stop Now (Keane)
- Hit Me With Your Best Shot (Pat Benetar)
- Have You Seen Me Lately (Counting Crows)
- Where Does the Good Go (Tegan and Sara)
- You Learn (Alanis Morissette)
- Brain Crack (Tracy Bonham)
- New York State of Mind (Billy Joel)
- New York, I Love You, But You're Bringing Me Down (LCD Soundsystem)
- Going the Distance (Cake)
- Bloody Mother F***ing A**hole (Martha Wainwright)
- All Star (Smashmouth)
- Hang On (Guster)
- Rehab (Amy Winehouse)
- Drink with Me (Les Mierables)
Monday, July 02, 2007
Bar Exam woes
You know the bar exam is getting closer when...You have absolutely no idea what today is. And when someone tells you, you still don't know what tomorrow will be.
You cringe at the words "paced program".
You spend every day experimenting with various forms and timings of caffeine-intake trying to find a balance between awake enough to get stuff done but not so jittery you cannot sit still.
You realize that from here on out, everything can wait until after July 25: friends, bills, oil change, doctors, sleep, bathing, gym. Okay, maybe not bathing.
Obnoxious terminology has infiltrated your daily conversations: "Look, I don't know what happened, but I'm pissed and res ipsa tells me it's your fault."..."Seriously, you are such an eggshell plaintiff!"..."That happened so long ago, the statute of limitations for you to bring this up to me has already run."
You realize Conviser is your friend. No seriously, he is. You find that you write him notes all day long like "help me Conviser" and "Conviser I need you". You also realize you have spent more time with him in the past few weeks than you have with any of your local friends.
Your friends' away messages say things like "This is one long race", "Make it STOP" and "Dear Bar Exam: suck it!"
When you turn on the television for background noise in the morning and Jerry Springer is on, you find yourself sitting down to watch it, because hell, anything is more interesting than studying at this point.
You look back at the girl you were a few months ago (the girl that was looking forward to studying for the bar exam) and you want to stab her with a highlighter.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Off-Balance
I feel like I'm losing control. Not in the "I'm in the middle of the ocean with no one around and the water is rising over my head" sorta way. More like the "I'm sitting on the roof of the building at the local trash dump watching the bulldozer move things around and load up the pile that use to be my life into an unrecognizable heap" sorta way. I knew the end of law school would bring about changes. I love change. I used to re-arrange all the furniture in my apartment at least once every six months so it felt "new". Well, I usually love change.For some reason, the bulldozer's act of taking from so many other piles and dropping it onto my formerly organized pile is really getting me unsettled. Each of the changes in isolation are good things (or at least not bad) and easily handleable. But taken together, I'm beginning to feel a bit overwhelmed. Good friends are becoming distant friends, weekly friends are becoming daily friends, contrasting personalities, merging worlds, learning at a different school with a lack of familiar faces, completely changed study habits, new living situation (I love you, V), and I have no time for the people I need most right now. Did I mention I am taking the bar exam in a couple of months then am embarking on an entirely new career? Again, bring on one or two of these, and I wouldn't blink an eye. Taken all together, I feel like an outsider looking into my own trash-pile-o-life.
I really need my groove back! Just not sure how to do that.
Labels: Angst, Life in General