The random thoughts of an architect-turned- lawyer from the deep south living in Washington, DC...

Thursday, December 09, 2004

The morning after

WOW! For many reasons, everything is spinning. Last night is a blur. Seriously, from the minute it began, I barely had time to breathe...just typed. I had a few minutes to pause to just sit there and think DAMN. It wasn't too bad. On the other hand, it wasn't so good either. I think the most difficult part for me is the lack of organization and definite answer. When you answer the questions in Contracts, you are supposed to analyze everything from every angle and argue all possibilities. So, my answers were pretty much "it could be this, or it could be this, or maybe this, I'm done, wait it also may be this". Not having a definite right and wrong kills me! I have a hard time gauging what he wants. At least there weren't any questions I couldn't answer (or least come up with some extravagent form of b*llsh*t).

Afterwards, a large number of folks in the class attended our section-wide happy hour. I have to tell you, there was no one I would rather unwind with than my new law school friends. I really got to meet a lot of people and more importantly, got to REALLY know a lot of people. Of course, in the end, I made an *ss of myself, but this is inevitble when people buy me shots. It was nice to get free drinks because I'm the senator...that's cool. The best part is the people who approached me to tell me how lucky they are to have me in their class and as the one who "brings everyone together." It wasn't the best part of my evening because I am being cocky...it was the best part because for the first time since this all started, I was less lonely. I wasn't going through this alone, there were supportive classmates all around me. Also, I am happy that I can make a difference in people's lives. Even if it is as simple as enabling a forum in which people can communicate and make friends, I feel like it's worth my job. I don't do the things I do for the thank you's. I do them so that on an evening like last night, I can look around and know that good things are coming out of something I did.

My brain is slowly returning to it's normal functioning mode. After an evening of heavy drinking, calling in sick to work, and an entire morning of dwarf lovers in Jerry Springer, I am ready to take a shower and start this process all over again...this time on the more difficult class.